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November 3rd, 2004

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September 9th, 2004

10:57 am - JV Volleyball I'm in a pretty good mood. I have to pack up the car for another trip to the new house. Monica has a JV Volleyball game at a nearby highschool and Mom says I can go. YAy! I'll get to see Monica again, and maybe Michael if he goes to the game... I was happy about that until I woke up this morning and my face had decided to break out. My face never breaks out....except when I need it to stay clear more then ever. UGH! Perhaps it sounds to the reader like my face resembles pizza. No, it's not that bad, but if I don't be careful, it'll get worse real soon. I'm just praying my face goes down by the time I might see Michael. I don't care if Monica sees me like this, she's my best friend. But Michael's my "boyfriend" and I don't see how he sees me as attractive in the first place and now I'm going to let him see me like this? Ah!!!! Damn, I hate when I sound like a teenager. Bessy Current Mood: angry

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August 26th, 2004

11:44 am - The Home of Some Well, I got really bored the other day and I deleted my other forum and made a new one. I like this one better, even though no one is going to join, since Moni has like no computer access. I think it'd be fun if I got some members that would actually post, but I seriously doubt that'll ever happen. But I think I'm still gonna keep this one going. Here's to boredom! Oh, btw, I'm moving again next week. Bessy http://homeofsome.proboards2.com/index.cgi Current Mood: amused Current Music: Metric - Succexy

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August 18th, 2004

03:35 pm - *yawns* *sigh* My life is boring. Parents get on my nerves. Moni is grounded. Michael and I are weird, I think Bez is angry. I may have gone a little too far with my teasing. *shrug* Peace out. Bessy Current Mood: blah Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie

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August 8th, 2004

07:25 pm - Michael Michael...what to say about him...I've had a little crush on him for a long time, not that I would've ever admitted that to Monica...until last night. My crush on him has grown...I still have crushes on other guys, duh...but still... Monica wants to hook me and Michael up... he likes me LIKE THAT... not that I couldn't tell, but monica straight up and asked him. I told monica and her 'boyfriend' michael's best friend supposedly sent a message to Mike telling him I liked liked him. Ah! I don't know what's going to happen... later Bessy Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie

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August 6th, 2004

08:00 pm - BLAH BLHA BPOFLKJSGHLKFJG Sorry, I'm a little confused with my life now. I have a crush on Michael. ;) Dad sprung a surprise vacation on us Tuesday. Just recently got back. Walsh called while I was gone asking me to fill in at Promise 4. damn...anyway... TJ died on Wednesday. I feel horrible. Trying to get to his funeral. Monica's Mom does not have cancer. in a hurry. luv ya! Bessy Current Mood: confused

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August 1st, 2004

11:36 am - Camp is over... Last week of camp for me...wow...camper was cool, had to lift all 125 lbs. of her by myself most of the time. Randy....gah... we got so close...but some stuff happened. Can't tell you now. Grr... I'm going to get his contact info from Monica's camper. :-p ttyl Bessy Current Mood: blah

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July 25th, 2004

10:05 am - On the road again.... I leave in less then 4 hours and I'm not packed. The dogs are supposed to be eating right now that's why I'm not bothering with getting off the computer just yet. I thought I'd write one last entry today and then be on my way. I can't believe who IMed me within 1 minute of me signing on. Anthony (or Ant), the little pervert who I freaked me out so I stopped talking to him. The first guy to ever cyberly hit on me. ;) :p This is kinda creepy. I wish Jim was going to be at camp this week. Then I'd have done every week this year with him. That'd be cool. Jim is the best. He was so fun to like hang out with, like at the crab shack. He was so funny, like when we were dancing. He's da best. Oh well, Randy will be there. Randy will be a fun group leader Well, I'm off later. Bessy Current Mood: flirty

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July 24th, 2004

12:02 pm - Getting ready to leave again... I'm so tired. But luckily my next week should be really easy. Basically she's just a 23 year old in a wheelchair and all I have to do is hang out with her and change her diapers. heh It should be fun. *shrug* Stephen should be doing music, so that'll be nice. Monica will be there as will Courtney, Matt, Randy, David, Tim, etc. Lots of people... I need to get a boyfriend. I know it's stupid, but seeing Stephen and Ana made me feel very lonely, they're so cute together. I miss having someone's arm around my waist. I miss feeling special. This song always makes me depressed.... 'Last kiss'... I'm gonna shut up before I say anymore I might regret. - Bessy Current Mood: lonely Current Music: oldies station

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July 23rd, 2004

03:40 pm - Happy Happy Joy Joy... Well, I got back from camp last night at around 12:30am. Camp was amazing, my camper was really hard, not the hardest at camp, but the hardest I've ever had. I never want to hear the song 'twinkle twinkle little star' again. I'd love to write down everything that happened but it's too much. I met my friend Stephen's girlfriend....well, I already knew her, I just didn't know they were dating. They are the -cutest- couple ever! I can see them getting married. hehe Well, I really don't have anytime to talk, I've got to get off I have to wash all my laundry, make Jamie's poster and then pack. Sheesh...I can't believe I'm about to leave again already...welp, Monica finds out that I cut my hair this Sunday, I wonder how she'll react... *shrug* I hope this next week goes well. Stephen will be doing music I think, that'll be great. ahhh! I have to tear myself away from the computer... luv ya, Bessy Current Mood: drained

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July 17th, 2004

09:54 am - Leaving.... Whelp...I'm leaving later today...yep...going to care to probably have this ugly smile wiped right off my face. Pray for me. Please. Pray that PK doesn't try to destroy me and Pray that I don't disappoint Jen and Stephen. *sign of the cross* I'm going to Yoga in about half an hour with that silly lady Diane on the TV. I can do the shoulder stand now. I feel accomplished. Al thought it was pretty impressive, although my father seemed to think it was nothing worth mentioning. I think it's cool. I may not be able to sit in full lotus 'correctly', but I'm getting there. I can put my left ankle on the top of my right thigh (sitting down of course) and the swing my left arm around my back to grab my left big toe and then having my right leg straight out grab my right big toe with my right hand and fold down. If that makes any sense to you guys... But I can't do it with my right leg on the left thigh... I've finished my poster for Katie, now all I have left to do is sit and wait until 6pm or so when I can drive down to camp and find out what the heck kind of disablilities she has. I'm very anxious to find out. I actually still have to finish packing. I could probably live on the clothes I have in my bag already, but I don't have any shampoo, or tooth paste in there yet. I NEED that stuff. I wonder what's different at Care. Lord, I am so nervous. Everyone keeps telling me I'm going to do great...but what if I don't?? What if I mess up and embarrass Jen?? I can't...this will be my best damn week ever and I will be the best bobdamn body they've ever seen. Cause I fucking rock. Way to pump yourself up, girl... I'm going to shove it in all their faces that I am a good buddy, and that if any of them think differently their gonna shit their pants when they see me. Okay, enough with the cussing, we're going to camp where we are not allowed to cuss...in front of the campers.... I'm hungry, I haven't eaten breakfast yet. I haven't walked or fed the dogs yet either, but as far as I know they haven't been making any noise, so they're probably not awake yet. I just hope they stay asleep until after yoga. Which starts in like 22 minutes.. Wow, we're going to have a night without Campers, since the campers come on Sunday. I'll have about 24 hours to look over her application, plus I can look it over with Jen and Jenny and get their advice on what I should ask the parents. I'm really nervous about talking to the parents. I mean, this IS Care. Their daughter is going to the Camp for severe cases. I'm probably going to have a TON of questions, and if she's in a wheelchair I'm going to have to ask them to show me how it works and everything. Geez... She'll probably wear diapers too... do they wear diapers in the pool? I don't know...what do they do at camp for that? Moni's camper had swim diapers. But I doubt mine will for Promise 3. Weird. Stop worrying, I'm going to do fine, it's just another, regular week of camp. It's the same stuff, Bessy, sure you've never had a wheelchair and if she's a wheelchair she may need diapers which you've never had to deal with (at camp) before...even if she does have diapers and if she is in a wheelchair.. you'll do great! Because you ARE a GREAT buddy. Jen wouldn't have asked you to Care unless she felt you were ready. You are totally ready for this... Calm down and go eat something. Later, Bessy. ps. I think this is my longest entry. ^_^ Current Mood: scared Current Music: Nine Days - If I am

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July 16th, 2004

04:29 pm - Bored 1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT? My guitar bit me aka one of my guitar strings cut my arm near the elbow while I was playing, I bleed a bit, but didn't notice the cut until after I was done playing. 2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Uh. A small bag with a buddha on it and a shawl like thing...I forget the word... 3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT? Play. Especially if you mean soccer/football. 4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT? Football/Soccer 5. WHAT WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE? Goodness, I've had so many...can't pick one really... 6. HOW DO YOU EXERCISE? Playing soccer, doing Yoga with that darn TV lady, Diane. 7. APPLES OR ORANGES? Oranges. 8. GRAPES OR WATERMELON? Tough choice...how about Grapermelon? 9. WOLVES OR TIGERS? Tigers. 10. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? Rock....ish? 11. HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN POETRY? I write poetry almost every day. 13. DO YOU REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS? Some...some I choose to forget... 14. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? 11:11AM 15. DO YOU HAVE A BIRTHMARK, WHERE? Yeah...I'd rather not say where it is.... 16. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON? Yeah... 17. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE? Crap! How the hell do you expect me to answer that? 18. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN? Packing. 19. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GUM? um... there's this one Watermelon gum that I absolutely love...but I can't remember what it's called... 20. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE? Tough, but I think I'll say Dark. 21. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)? Gummy Bears...especially the clear ones. 22. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM? Chocolate 23. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER? My boots (Football/Soccer Cleats) 24. FAVORITE COLOGNE? I don't think I have one... 25. FAVORITE PERFUME Uhhh...I lack knowledge in the fragrance area. 26. DO YOU OWN AN INSTRUMENT? A guitar. 27. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)? His eyes....*dreamy look* 28. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? Not sure...warmth and sweat maybe.... 29. FAVORITE SOUND THAT YOU HEAR OFTEN? rain falling 30. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING RIGHT NOW? How I am so about to cry... 31. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? No. 32. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE? ....do you mean from the house I am living in? *confused* I'm moving any week now. 33. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME? It's a tight race between Beauty and the Beast and Sleeping Beauty, but I think Beauty and the Beast takes it in the end. 34. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME? Right now, probably Eve 6 - Heres to the night 35. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR WHEN YOU WERE TEN? Blue 36. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? Brownish, but they turn green. 37. HAVE YOU EVER SLEPT WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Yeah. I still do sometimes. 38. IF SO WHAT WAS/IS IT'S NAME? I've had so many, but my oldest is named Thumper... 39. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE? ...Philip...*blush* Shows how I've matured right there. 40. MOST EMBARRASSING CHILDHOOD MOMENT. hmm...crying in front of everyone at GS. 41. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? I don't know...it kinda depends on the guy and everything... 42. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? A lot... their eyes, how they talk, act their friends...I don't damnit...don't put me in this position. 43. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS (SAME SEX) HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST? Helen. But I don't know if she'd consider me her friend as we only see eachother during the summer. 44. NOW THE OPPOSITE? Stephen. The same with him as he is her older brother. 45. WHAT IS THEIR MIDDLE NAME? Stephen's is Joseph, but I don't remember ever being told Helen's.. damn... 46. SUNRISE OR SUNSET? Sunset 47. WHERE AT? wherever 48. (FOR THE LADIES, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT? ha...ha ha ha... like that's ever happening... 49. (NOW THE GENTLEMEN, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING? 50. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES? Off the top of my head...Brazil, 12 angry men, Fight Club, Gandhi and Adaptation. Many more but that's off the top of my head. 57. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON? ...my room? Sheesh, why do I need to think about this now? No one is ever going to be crazy enough to marry me anyway... 58. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT? A little guitar and a little clarinet. 59. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? I'm learning Arabic. 60. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)? When I was 7 I had this little 4 year old boy who was in love with me and he gave me one of those rings you get in the 25 cent machine. 61. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER? Hmm...Rob Thomas, Jewel...*shrug* 62. FAVORITE BAND(s)? J.E.W., Weezer, Third Eye Blind, AudioSlave, Eve 6, Matchbox Twenty, Evanescence, Nirvana, Beatles, etc. 63. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ? ANything really... 64. DO YOU LIKE POETRY? Love it. 65. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE? Lots of cream and sugar. 66. WHAT's your favorite PHRASE to use? "um...." Does that count? 67. DRAGONS OR DINOSAURS? Dragons. 68. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? Don't know... 69. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? It all depends...whatever works for you... 71. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: Eighteen. 72. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?: I mostly like Brunette boys. 73. WOULD YOU PREFER TO GO ICE SKATING OR ROLLER SKATING? Neither really... 74. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN Hard to say, it's a tie between Michael's and Moni's. 75. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? My brothers. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Fuel - Shimmer

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July 15th, 2004

11:50 am - CARE BABY!!! WHOOOOHOOOO! BOO YAH! Take that byatches! er...yeah. Jen called me and asked me to do Care. Dang right... I don't know anything about my camper except that her name is katie and I'm guessing she's a girl. I don't know what she has or anything!! The anticipation is killing me...I wonder if she's in a wheelchair...I'm hyper right now... Anyway...wow...we get paid $125 to do this camp! I didn't know that... wow... Anyway, I leave on Saturday but I'll be back on Thursday. And like then I leave again on Sunday...wow.... HYPER... I couldn't fall asleep last night for the LONGEST time... Ooooh ooh oh oh.. for the longest time...er, yeah, but when I did fall asleep I had some weird dreams, I remember saying, to myself in my dream. I have to remember this so I can write it in my dream journal which is a little green notebook I keep by my bed. But when I woke up all I could remember was seeing this guy, thinking it was Christian, but it turned out to be someone else I didn't know...it's weird how shadows can make a red head look like a blonde. :p I have no idea what I am talking about...anyway, I almost have Katie's poster completed all I have to do is glue on the Jolly Rogers flag. WOw....I am really hyper... Um...so yeah... -Bessy Current Mood: weird Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie

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July 14th, 2004

11:53 am - Whoops... I forgot to give you the URL to my working forum. (feels good to say that.) http://cherrypieska.suddenlaunch3.com/index.cgi Peace! Bessy. Current Mood: crazy

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11:50 am - Finally... I went to proboards to try AGAIN at making a working board. But they said that no one could make a board again until yesterday... I was confused but went to the link they had to a similiar service and made a board. It works! I actually received a password for TESTING. sudden launch doesn't have as many things as Proboards, ie, no calendar, no given avatars. but it's still something. I can't wait to get some members. I think I can make it a successful board. No word from Jen about Care. That makes me sad. :( I really want to go! (Please God!) later, Bessy. Current Mood: excited Current Music: Jewel - 0304

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July 13th, 2004

01:41 pm - Care I thought I'd just let you all know that I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go to Care! *PLEASE GOD* - Beggin' Bessy. Current Mood: hyper

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11:36 am - BAHHH! Hannah is awesome! She told me that Jen was looking for chicks to do Care and she even called Jen and asked her to call me (message). I hope she calls and has a girl spot open for me. I hope she Monica and ask her to do it. I want to do it so bad. Monica came back early it seems. It was great to hear from her again. Hannah is very nice. I fixed up my forum by making a complete new one. I'm gonna delete the old one in a while. Here is the link to the new one: http://unhappypieska.proboards34.com/index.cgi Peace! Bessy Current Mood: hopeful

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July 12th, 2004

11:14 am - *YAWN* I'm tired. Yesterday...or maybe it was the day before...hmm...anyway, I got so bored recently that I created a forum. With proboards. It's the stupidest thing. And I've got no members. But it's fun to play with. It'd be great if I could get some members... Danielle, my camper from Special said she'd join, but she hasn't yet. Hannah said she'd join next chance she gets. I don't know who else to ask as I don't know many people and I am not even -telling- Monica about the site until I get a lot of active members so she can't spam up my board. UPDATE: Bah! It's not letting people join...at least not like it should...Ah! I'm confused. Later. Bessy. http://bruisedpeiska.proboards23.com/index.cgi Current Mood: crushed

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July 10th, 2004

11:45 am - Michael is leaving me!!! Ahhh! I know I've already written a lot of entries today, but Michael just told me he is leaving tomorrow for a week. *sobs* I'm going to miss him! But if I do get call in for Care (please God!) I'll be gone when he gets back. *frown* I'd still want to go to Care (Please God!)... I really really really want to go to Care! (Please God!) Love, someone who REALLY wants to go to Care (Please God!), Bessy Current Mood: worried

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11:37 am - Tim...lied? Ok...I was just talking to Hannah, my friend, sister of Tim, another friend of mine. Tim had earlier told me he was going to Care and now Hannah tells me that Tim isn't going to care. This makes Bessy very mad. I'm truly hurt. Oh wells, I'm talking to Bez, Hannah and Michael so I'm good. I'll just have a bone to pick with him at P3. Angry Bessy. Current Mood: annoyed

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